"We regret to inform you"

 Fun fact that is not so surprising- I have ADHD. This was only found out last year (after I went through a lot of tests just out of curiosity). Also fun fact: getting a job lately is impossible.

Let's put 2 of those things together and see how everything works out, right?

I get hyperfixated on things easily. Foods, hobbies, passions, tasks. This is good when a thing you need to do conveniently falls into that category, but if I'm not, then it's like pulling teeth. I know I have to do it, and I don't mind doing it- but starting is impossible.

Anyway, Indeed has been constantly open on my computer lately. I have this dream of moving to Toronto with whatever job I get, so I've been hunting there. A lot of times I apply knowing I am out of shot. But there was this one that I was so excited to hear back from. One that I think I held the most qualifications for, for an Instagram clothing brand that I genuinely love.

Long story short, big red letters 'you have not been selected by the employer'. I see these all the time, so it's not new, but it is getting to a point that at what point do my skills make me worth a job? Bad way of thinking, I know, but that shit really grinds you down after 2 years of applications, cover letters and AI robot interviews. 

I mean, I'll still try cause that's what I am used to, and hopefully soon the big red letters will turn to green.